Im glad that at this moment, there's still someone who was able to lend me a listening ear, encouraged me, advised me and telling me what i should do for my future..
Now, I had reflect on myself and started to think positive.. I felt that i had learned a lot after this matter and do also learned from my mistakes... I know im stupid to do all kind of things and my attitude was so freaking negative.. Whatever things i do, i didnt even use my brain to think carefully before i do.. Thats why this was wad i get.. I cant blame anyone for this as myself do have wrong so now everyone of us are equal... And i treated this as a lesson for me so next time if i met the same situation, i know how to overcome it and prevents it to happen again..
I think my biggest mistake was take it for granted.. Once u had the thing, u will not care like what u used to be but u will felt that it should be like this.. Thats why people would neglect their loves one easily... My attitude was another mistake which it would affect on how i treat my partner.. And how my partner would think of me... My bad temper was the third mistake as im quite easy to get impluse so i didnt use my brain to think properly whn im furious, upset or anxious.. My fourth mistake was i didnt think carefully before i open my mouth or what i do.. This had lead me to suffered a lot.. Having a bad memory was also one of the mistakes as i tend to forget things easily thats why i always said the wrong things so often....
In a relationship, there is no right or wrong . Its depend on two person on how they gonna manage it and solve the problems together. Trust is an important part in a relationship. But not only that, we also need to let our partner feel secure. If u dont let ur partner felt secure, they will get jealous and overly suspicious easily then it will be hard to avoid arguements and quarrels.. If u met some kind of situation, walking away from it wasnt something bad as not everyone can do it.. It is actually brave to walk away.. It would be best if both of them can have a calm talk than having arguements to hurt each other... No one would want to hurt their loves one but they just cant control themselves...
(For my relationship, we had lost our trust for each other and also let our partner felt insecure.. This lead us to had an unstable relationship thats why we often quarrel and could not have a calm talk but to hurt one another so others do have a chance to step into our relationship and thats how third party came. I cant blame him as both parties do have wrong but to continue with my life to make it better than it used to be. No point blaming and hates him to make yourself suffer but to pretend it like nothing happened.)
Loving someone doesnt have to be together with that person.. U can love that person inside ur heart without letting him/her know.. Sometimes letting him/her go is also a way of love.. If he/she is happy with another person, just let it go.. At least u know, he/she is happy with their life now.. No point doing those stuffs to get ur partner back if the heart wasnt with u, u will just get further from them and let them hate u.. So just let the person go although u still love him/her.. You can even forgive ur partner when he/she did something bad because u know u love him/her and u still want them to be in your life.. People tends to cherish their loves one after they starts to lose them so whn they realised, everything is too late. Actually to get ur loves one attention is just to stop giving them yours then they will notice u.
(I still love him but his heart wasnt with me anymore. He is now happily with another girl so Whatever things i do, it wont affect him anymore but just let him feels irritating and also make them get closer. I just do too much to get his attention... The worst part is im the only one suffering from it so im trying to let go and get over with it. Wadever things he do to me, i can even forgive him because i love him. I did regret that i didnt cherish him whn he was mine but take it for granted so im losing him. For the next relationship, i will tell myself not to make those mistakes so that i wont regret again.)
It is difficult to become friends after broke up so most of the relationship will back to its cycle which is strangers but with those precious memories which only the both of them had..
(We might not able to become friends but I still had those precious memories with him before which these are the only thing that no one can have it..)
FRIENDS do not need to hang out everyday but will be there for u whn u need them. They do not judge or comments but be a listener, lend u their shoulder and a helping hand whn u need it. They will also go through thick & thin with u, give u some advise, encourage u and think for your future. They do not lie to you too. Thats why true friends are difficult to find but once u have it, please cherish them...
(I did think of starting afresh with u to become friends.. Someone who will be able to stay by ur side whn u need.. Help u with ur problems.. As i understand, hows the feeling is whn u really need a true friend. But for the moment, i dont think we are able to communicate. Let things calm down for a period of time then see how it goes.)
Our relationship have lasted for 3 years. We had gone through thick & thin for these 3 years just like a married couple which others cant experience it.. We had our laugher, enjoyment, sadness, arguements together.. Although everything had become the past but these are our own precious memories that i will not forget.. Afterall, we did love each other a lot before and glad to have those memories together.. I appreciated for what u had done for me before.. Wanted me to be independent.. Think for my future.. Take care of me.. Not everyone will think so much for their girlfriend like this.. You are the first one that i know and im glad to have someone like u before to help me think everything which myself didnt even concern it. Thats why now im able to be independent than what im used to be and think for my future... Thankyou.. And lastly, we were able to celebrated our first valentine's day together even we dated for 3 years.
Whatever i have said above, are from the bottom of my heart. These are what i understand after reflected upon myself and also a reminder to myself, not to make the same mistakes again. Whatever it is, what's over is over. Let us start new afresh all over again!
