Feeling uneasy..

I almost had a heart attack just now.. Felt so anxious and nervous.. I still cant accept some of the facts.. I have been trying to keep my feelings to myself.. But somehow, only managed to keep some of it.. Yesterday, i continued my thinkings Then suddenly get too emotional. I cried. I cant calm myself down until im sleepy. I have to accept some kind of unreasonable things so i thinking of ways to accept.. This makes me fear of it. The more i think, the more complicated and confusing i get.. I really dontknow what can i do.. Im trying to show others that im strong, i can overcome it but who knows the scenes behind it? Only myself. Please dont leave me alone when i needed you. I do need supports and encouragement.

Theres always a scar left behind even after the wounds have recovered so its hard to avoid those fear..

People tend to be selfish although we shouldnt be selfish but there are some things which selfish is reasonable.

In this short period of time after that matter, i think i did a great job to change my own thinkings and mindset. At least i tried my best to overcome it. The ending is important as well as the process. You will learn and experience different things just by the process and get the results by the ending. Dont just focus on the ending and forget about the process.

We cant predict our future but at least we can change the route by our actions and mindset. Our decision may affects our future so think carefully before u decide. I dontknow if im making the right decision for now but at least i know we are happy.

Live with hope in your heart.